My words for the year are going to be Brave and True.
I live so much of my life in fear and anxiety but when I push myself I can do really brave things. I want to really try and grow this part of myself. I have a lot of things going on this year that are going to require bravery and inner strength so I hope that by focusing more on this I will be able to really learn to feel truly brave.
I also want to be true, to myself. I spend a great deal of time and energy worrying about other people and what they think of my that I am constantly censoring myself. I really want to be true to who I am and what I like and want. I hardly know what that is anymore so I am really going to dig and find out this year.
To really reinforce these things I made a new painting to go by my bed. It is the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing I see at night. I layered old book pages onto the canvas then used gesso to white out the area for my portrait, which I then drew on in pencil. I added a few circles, some filled in, some just stitch lines. I am really happy with it. I haven't painted in so long and it felt really good. Especially to do something with such a positive and strong message behind it.
